Wednesday, December 29, 2010

The last trip i had.....

This last trip that i had with my friends who i meet since the 1st sem in imu.... Some even at taylors adi meet... In the group have one that i love too....
The 1st meet was the deepest memory in my heart... The smile and the laugh that we had.... the all things we had done...
One person that i loved in had changed ( the friendship)... One day the truth and dare... Some Qs had remind me.... One of my friends ask if the love i had on her had become one of her burden, wat should i do.... I thought twice before i answer it... It is true then wat should i do.... Leave the love that i had towards her or continue it.... It is the hardest decision that i ever made in my life.... One i can sure is that not rebut with other people GF or BF.... The last question that i had is that the virgin of a girl.... I easily answer it .... Cause according to bible .. the body is paid by the heaviest price by Jesus Christ... Not rebut with other's boyfriend and girl friend is the last of the 10 comments.
The love towards the person i love is based on the 2nd Corinthians 12 the love that Jesus taught.. All of them i still learn ...... Hope one day can give her the love that i give towards God.... but God is priority in my life.. She is third after the serving towards God....

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

The problem i have

Since long time i already not blog adi... i decide to blog to day cause i want to write down all my problem. I actually I still love a girl. I thought that i can let down the feeling i had towards her but i cannot. I had lied to myself. That wat i can do every day. I had rejected by her before. I had loved her before but that time she had a boyfriend. That wat i had said to myself never take away people girl friend. I had confess to her before but rejected. But should i say to her again or just wait for her.... I scare will be rejected again ...
I know that i not suited that criteria of boy friends that she want... I am an emo person... Dun know how to manage my emotion. I not smart, handsome and thin too.... I dun dare to promise anything to her but only one thing i dare to promise to her is i love her with all my heart. soul and mind. Even i had 1 bowl of rice, i rather to give her to eat. Even I only have ten pence in my pocket and i am willing to give her too....
I just know that i love her.... the main reason her smile that make me forgot lots of problem i had... The kindness she had to other people.... I hope she will see this post and give me some response .....