How to survive

It is ao fastrated . Study so hard for what ? For family may be . For myself not sure . How to get the good result . Study harder than other people and result worst than other people . Why i not talented in study and memories all the thing that i learn like superman . Petrol price increase and life get harder . I cun see any enjoyment in my life . The empty in my heart never be fiiiled . If there is a choice and no people need to pay for it , i think i rather die no burden to my parent. I also dun need to have lots thing to think and worry about . I think that is the most happy thing . How ................... .I think need to study to repay my parent