The effort

Why i should bother a person since she do not even bother it ? I try so hard to maintain the friendship that we had before ... Try to speak to her ... Try to ask her some stuff... Every time just get ignored or answer like dun like to reply.... I try to hard to maintain this friendship too hard until I am tired and dun know what to...

Wat am I to her also.. Since she had so many friends, wat i am to her a dust or just a small sand... People had talked bad about her , i tried to protect her cause i know she not bad as i think...

I AM SO TIRED TO KEEP IT ADI.....

The tired month

This month is the most tired month that i ever had in my life.. the due date of assignment for cpp, exam, result , busy with the CNY stuff... Lots of thing need to be done but only little time that we had....

In this busy month, I had learn some thing .. However busy and frustrated i am but i had find the peace, joy and love in my heart that i lost for so long ... I had put the wrong priority in my life before and now try to readjust it... Lord Jesus had said come to me and you will find peace in me... share the burden with Jesus , He will carry together with you.... Life is not easy... but when i in the present of God, I will everyday fill with energy... I just pray to Lord let me burn for Him and change some of my attitude and ways of speaking .. May all of my action glorify the Lord name... Sorry I not know the scription are but i only know the meaning ....

Not realized that the end of uni life will be over soon in 4 or 5 months .. Lots of things had happen in the this 4 years ... I know that we all will be away and not see each other adi....

I really hope that i can appreciate the uni life as long as i can ... I also dun know how to enjoy it since it is a stressful month for us....I hope I really can spend the last fews months in UK with all my friends .... The one thing that i sure I never regret in life is knowing a group of friends who always on my side no matter in what situation I in.... I always see some last time photos and laugh when seeing some photo.... I can say that

This song on facebook speak some of my feeling... I am too naive... I think it is time to let go and dun so stubborn... Lots of thing wait me to do.... I think it is difficult to do it but I believe I can do it this time .... The feeling not fade in a second it need time to be fade out. It might take weeks or months to fade.... It is hard and difficult for me to do it.. I think I can do JIA YOU ba...

The Lie

I also dun know why i had the feeling of putting this post on.....

I had tell lots of lie in my life esp the person i had with,the money i had who am i and etc

Actually I had one girlfriend before instead of three or four .... I also not good in fighting and never involve in fighting before. Why i need to boost about the bad thing of me if i actually dun have ... The fighting and other... Why i want to show the untruth of me or the bad side of me if i actually i can show the good side of me.... Is it that i want to boost the bad side of me and let other people hate me or what .. I also dun know....

The bible had told me that it is not good to lie ..... Why i want to lie about something in my life ? To get people attention or to show off my bad side.... I had think this issue for fews days... I really want to start to be myself again or be the bad guy.... I afraid no people around me know actually know the truth of me may be few... Only the secondary friend know how i behave and who i am.... Dun know la.. Anyone who read it can give me some explaination and reason .... haize .. Feel like relief after wrote it down

Left out

Some thing had happened i was always been left out ... I used closed to them but now i might just a puppet for them.... I dun know wat they think i also lazy to know what they think... some thing had happen they dun want to forgive is their problem .. I think they all do not appreciate wat i had done to them .... The person who do not appreciate wat you done to them just dun care.... Everytime had event or thing happen where i got place into it.... everytime i just muka tebal to ask them to join them.... Some person allow other people to see thier blog but not me and lied to me that no people access about it ... dun think i dun know i just pretend i dun know about it .... i not stupid just pretend to be stupid if my birthday you or you all dun want to come just dun come ... chat with you.. you just like dun want to layan me ask 10 Qs u just reply one ... i dun want to reply then just say it out WTF ...

Chinese New Year

The 1st time celebrate chinese new year at foreign country ... Miss the environment of chinese new year in my hometown.. Miss the food and miss alot ... The care and the love from family and friend esp secondary friends... Everytime look at them in the past, always say hiaze sian see you again... Go back home always hear parent said dun do this and dun do that .. Now at foriegn country want to eat homecook foood also cannot can speak longer with them also cannot... Every thing had taken away from us , we only start appreciate it .... Love and care other while other still care and love you.. Talk to them while they still can talk to you...
After few months at here, I changed a lots and learn a lot of stuff... Sometimes silence is a good way to avoid something to happen.... A person i know used to be the best friend now not talk to much even want to joke with her i dun think have the chance gua.... espcially after the incident of her knowing that i love her .. Still the same thing i know i do not match with her if she choose me as her other half i think iit is my honour to be choosen by her...