The cry in my heart

I never pray like this before .. I cried when I prayed ... The anger that I had, the loneliness that I faced, the grave that I had I really dun know how to do... I pray to Lord...

The anger that I had to a girl named which I in loved before.. I had done lots for her .. she kept that she appreciated that all that I had done but her action showed another way else... I knew that I not suitable to her .. I try my best to change myself for her... I tried to get off my bad habit and I purposely shown my bad side for her ... Other people think that I was happy when they all talked about her but i actually not happy at all

I fell loneliness every time that I talked to people.... they not replied and they do not layan me

The grave that I faced is due to my grandfather situation i dun know how i do I REALLY DUN KNOW HOW TO DO IT..... I want to talk to some people but scare they not layan people .. people used to care for me now dun even layan me adi.... I dun know how

I believe God will guide me through every moment and every situation I faced

poeple had decide to be good and bad sometimes but this time I had decided to be bad side I think that not need the point of being good anymore...

Christian with mask

Lots of christian carry the mask every day... I do not want to say and judge anyone but i realise the person who beside me called themselve as christian but always put on the "mask" on their face everyday ... I had not thing to say but just give them the song named poker face for them.... I might not a good in my behaviour compared to other but i try to tear off the mask if have if possible....