原来我才发现我真的暗恋一位girl

The leaving

Now every one left one by one every day send people away... that no choice the decision I had made to take my exam here.. who ask me how foolish I am near the exam still want to plan people birthday.... that the foolishness I am ... at the final cannot pass when people use time to study I used the time to do cake... How suffer from wat I had done stupid ma ... no choice lo..... How in the situation of do or die again every time I also need to be in it .... HIAZE

The leaving

I dun very time I sent people away I had the pain in my heart ... I thought I used to it but today as I sent nicole and wan yuan away until airport .... My heart fail the sadness and pain like very strong.. as they went by stuff with kelvin ... I read the notes I made but my heart become very sad and i almost drop my tears fro the 1st time ba.... Nothing I can do just sent the best wishes for them

Hiaze

I try to be my best in preparing the resit of my exam... I know that I had let my parents disappoint in the final... I try my best to do it... however every time I had conversation with them always talk about the CPP.. I had bored of it... I try to prepare it adi....

I really so tired in doing the preparation... I really stress up adi... I WAS VERY TIRED .... DUN KNOW HOW TO DO ADI....

Some thing I gain when....

I had failed my one of my subject in the final exam... on that time I was very sad , angry and emo.... It like I had lost all the world I dun know what to do and how to do it.... there is the fear in my heart that continue until I go to trip.....

I knew a person who is a good christian.... lots of talking done by that person was very good and that person was the 1st who have the courage to correct the weakness I had all this time ..... He/ she was the good christian and good friend too...

In one of the conversation between me and the person, I really realize the mistake and weakness I had done... the 1st love that I had towards God and Jesus was been found back... the passion I had for Christ was found back too

In this whole year, most of the time I plan to do thing with my own strength.... I was very proud of myself try to do most stuff with me... I talked to God and get response that I will never fail if I rely on His strength ... who am I that He die for me .... I had been in so many difficulties where I cannot see the way out but Jesus had lead me the way and helped so much....

In bible words had said a person who follow Jesus's way never easy cause our own flesh and devil give us temptation .... however all of the temptation was given to see how strong our faith towards God..... In my weakness I like to say I am strong because I am strong due the strength of the Lord had given me .... In this moment ...I finally realize the strength I had from Jesus who is my comforter and my strength when I am weak and I am in sad.... Thanks Jesus wat a true and lovely I had found ....