The thing you want to do....

When your headache was diagnosed by doctor, there were no result indicate any change in your blood test and other test.. What will you do... and doctor tell you there were only two properlity which were either i had to do other test whic　needed paid by myself or i had cancer I was shocked when I received this news… I had thought of these two adi….. I just did not want to hear it too early… Since I had receive this news, I decided to live by making people around me happy…. Everyone happy I also happy… I had listen to David Teo “ Wang Ba Dan”…. I had decided to change the lyric and meaning of the song…. Let build the happiness on other people , I always love to do it and fell happy when people happy…. We become the blessing to other ….SO we can become happy

The song .....

I hear one song recently .... The name of the song is胡夏 - 愛 都是對的

The song was so touch that I nearly cry while listening to it. Love always correct and there is no wrong about it. When we love a person, we eve know the answer was no from other parter. We still continue and love her/him..... Even we know that at the end, we will separate apart, We will go each place than our loved one ..... We still choose to love him or her not matter the cost that needed to be paid. I also acknowledge that a person who do not love other do not have the right to love other people. I was partially agree it... I had saw my friend learn to love herself after she meet a boyfriend.....

The interesting thing i see on facebook.......

1.你敢不敢在她发脾气骂你滚开时候紧紧的抱住她？

2.你敢不敢为她努力，把自己变的成熟稳重优秀，然后一如既往的爱她？

3.你敢不敢有点儿长性，别得到了就不珍惜，若即若离你才得劲儿？

4.你敢不敢经常抱抱她亲亲她，让她觉得她在你眼里总是可爱，觉得你一直喜欢她需要她？

5.你能不能记住你们的每一个纪念日，记住今天是在一起的第几天？

6.你能不能在她无理取闹胡思乱想的时候，给她足够的安全感，不会对她不耐烦？

7.你能不能时刻都牵着她的手，无论是过马路逛公园，或是在朋友师长面前？

8.你能不能细心的记住她说的话，留意她喜欢的东西，保管她送你的礼物？

9.你能不能不欺骗她，不冷落她，不忽略她？

10.你能不能为她24小时开机，在她做噩梦的晚上有人可以哄她睡觉？

11.你能不能不只把她当花瓶，有心事会对她说，有决定也会找她商量？

12.你能不能不再大手大脚，只为了攒下钱带她去吃好吃的，去想去的地方？

13.你会不会在争吵后主动道歉，哪怕她错，你也不忍心责怪？

14.你会不会打心底认为她是天底下最好的女孩，一旦拥有别无所求？

15.你会不会在她生病时领她去打针，然后看她害怕的憋红的眼睛，紧紧的抓住她的手抱着她？

16.你会不会‘不小心’就记得她爱吃的、她不爱吃的，她对什么过敏她害怕什么虫子？

17.你会不会带她去看新上映的电影，在她手里塞上一个冰激凌，然后她笑你笑，她哭你哄？

你敢在公众面前说“我爱你”吗?

你敢在FB/MSN个人签名档里写“我爱你”吗?

你敢在给所有人看的博客里留下你给她的情书吗?

你会在她哭泣的时候抱着她吗?

你会在谈起你们的未来时信心十足的样子吗?

你会给她写谁也看不懂只有她懂的温柔句子吗?

你会温柔的叫她宝宝吗?

你会在她看到某个东西不舍的眼光时想到偷偷买下它,送给她吗?

你会为了她偷偷的去挣一点钱,只是为了给她买一份礼物吗?

你会坚定的爱她吗?

如果可以，这样就好。。 Is the man really will not do it or shy to do it... For me i dare to do some of it ....

The chat that i had with my 2ndary friend part II

The chat that i had before late post one is about the wat attitude will a guy or girl will carry out in front of him or her boyfriend and girlfriend....

The chat we had is the longest that we ever had.... One of my friend who is a girl... She say that she do not even know he boy friend attitude until they marry.... the girl is a secret.... She does not know her boyfriend had a bad temper that she does not know even they stay together for a long time but only discover when they marry...

When i was asked, wat will i show in front of girl i love.. I will say that i will only show my bad side in front of her and start debate... I said that good side easily accepted by other person than bad side... People used to do it to cover the bad side of them until their other half discovered it later...

But we all debate until dun know ...... All decide depend on individual... For me... I prefer see the bad side of other half than know later... good side easily to accept but the bad side is difficult one..... try to love other from their bad side this is learn from bible one......

The chat that i had with my 2ndary friend

This afternoon i had a chat with my secondary friends about related to my problems.... I had posted it before went out just now...

I told them the problem i had... One of the advices i had is that i really love or like her? They told me that there are difference between love and like.. They also told me that how do i like a person if i cannot love myself 1st... This Qs had let me think twice before telling them.... The feedback that i had is that they do not doubt that I can provide everything to a girl even the protection and every promise that i kept before.... but the answer i had is that i need to know how to take care myself before can carry out these promise and protection to her.... If not all will become zero at the end and none promise kept....

I finally realise that the problem is on me all time.... The selfishness ,stubborn and bad attitude that i had will cause people away from me....
The second thing that we discuss was the unfair that i had and i had complain it for so long.... I should put it down now... continue with my future waiting for me..... Thanks so much....

The emo.......

Lots of people see the changes from a person who i think quiet happy or kai lang to an emo person.. I had lots of problem since i entered the uni and before enter uni....

The headache that i had is getting worst ever year... the pain is not what i can tahan one.... the pain is like the needle that put into the head and pull it out.... It cannot be taken away just by taking medication.... The pain i can cover it up and dun let other know but the feeling towards the pain i cannot cover it up

The second thing that i always worry is about my grandfather... The person who love me the most since i was young.. everything always think about me.. Since he got stoke and cancer, i never worry how long my grandfather will live.. I hope he can continue survive each days and year ... My heart always think about him even i in uk or in holiday... The things that i always remind in heart....

I know these are not the excuse that i cannot use to say i am emo or other .... But this is the true fact that i faced in my life....

The changes .....

Now days lots of things had changed. I dun know is that i had change or people around me had changed... I dun know why that every people that i knew had changed attitude towards me ....

The friends that i know also change towards me.. I always hope that i think to much ... but in the reality is not true.... i hope .... the girl that i know from sem 1 until now....The friendship that we had changed a lots since come to uk..... From a close friend change to friend .... may be one day change to stranger to.... This may because lots people know the feeling that i had to her and the attitude ..... the thing had in berlin..... everything had change..... I dun know how ... Just let it go and pretend nothing happen.... haize..... Dun know how......